Sumpong.

Not worthy for others

I am feeling really heartbroken these past few weeks. I have realized I am not really lucky with having relationships with others. I tend to choose people who will eventually not care about me and push away people who actually cares about me.

It seems so miserable and it actually is. It gets really tiring as well to be in this position.

Anyways, am I not really worth fighting for? Hindi ba ako ang tao na worth habulin? mahalin ng sobra pa sa pagmamahal na pwede ko ibigay? Hindi ba ako isang sapat na kaibigan na pwede tumulong kapag nangangailangan ka? 

Palagi nalang ba ako pwedeng tiisin? palagi nalang ba ako last resource? 

Bute nalang may pamilya ako na nagpaparamdam saken na worthy ako. Bute nalang may DIYOS ako na buhay Niya ang pinalit para iligtas ako. Yun nalang lagi kong nilalagay sa utak ko kapag umiiyak ako. 

Siguro its time to really disconnect myself sa mundo at simulan ang buhay ko to dig deeper sa salita ng Diyos. To be in deep relationship kay Lord. 

Salamat Panginoon.

Life update!

Last week, I got two job opportunities! Thank you Lord!
BUT sadly, I did not get any of them, It is okay. I think God has better plans for me and something planned or something great is waiting to be pour out in my life. That is how God is so good :)

I believe in God and have faith on HIM.
I cant even explain the goodness of the Lord in my life, I am seriously far from being perfect, not even half. BUT GOD never failed to show me that I am His daughter and He loves me more than anything.

If you are struggling with any problem that this world is offering, always remember that you are not alone. God is with you, watching over you. God Loves you.

Seek HIM

John 3:16-17

For God So Loved the World

16 “For God so loved the world,[a] that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life. 17 For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him.

I just love my devotion today. Reminding me of our Lord Jesus Christ. Thank GOD for this words and messages.
It is really true that our generation is making us so busy that it occupies our life. But we should never forget na kailangan naten maglend ng time, magkaroon ng quiet time with our Lord. I know I am not perfect but I am trying to seek God in my life. He has given me so much and blessed me so much, and what I am doing right now cannot even compare to how much he has done for me. Minsan napapaisip ako na meron times na hindi ako nakakapagdevotion and nkakapagpray (worst thing, i know) kasi nga pagod and nakakatulog sa panunuod ng youtube vids bago matulog. Kaya ko ito, I would seek HIM first all the time. Kung si Lord nga buhay niya sinasacrifice para saten, tayo konti lang hinihingi saten, di pa ba naten magagawa? 

Sabi rin ni Lord oh sa Mark 16:15 "And he said to them, “Go into all the world and proclaim the gospel to the whole creation". 

Thank your LORD talaga! 

Grateful in hard times.

Just a brief summary of my day today, I came from a job fair looking for an RPN job opportunity around the country and outside Canada. I am willing to relocate but most of the positions are available for RNs. It is really frustrating because finding a job here in Ontario is very difficult because it is already very competitive. I couldn't compete because I am only a new graduate, but with God's grace I was offered two job opportunities last wednesday. God is good!

My story is a bit confusing because it is all over the place, anyways, I am here to share my devotion.  For today, I used the daily reading book that was sent from InTouch Ministries (Dr. Charles Stanley).

The verse is from Psalm 66 and these are the verses that spoke in my heart:

v5. Come and see what God has done:
he is awesome in his deeds toward the children of man.

v8. Bless our God, O peoples;
let the sound of his praise be heard,
v9. who has kept our soul among the living
and has not let our feet slip.
v10. For you, O God, have tested us;
you have tried us as silver is tried.
v11. You brought us into the net;
you laid a crushing burden on our backs;
v12. you let men ride over our heads;
we went through fire and through water;
yet you have brought us out to a place of abundance.

Please read the verses because to every people who go through hard times in life, this is a reminder that God is testing us and that He will never leave nor forsake us. He will let us go through to these things because He is testing if our faith is genuine. In of the preacher I heard, he said that we should have joy when God is challenging and treat it as a positive test for us. He is challenging us to see the best out of us despite of all the trials we face. He will let you go through it but He will never leave you. Evil will try to bring the worse out of us but GOD will bring the best out of us, so we just need to trust Him. God hears our prayers.

GOD is good!
I give all the praises and glory to God for He deserves it.